Dear diary, well after a few weeks time to make another post I guess. Not sure why or if it really matters. I have gone back to working the late shift again and her daughter and grand daughter went back home. Her best friend came over last week for a few days and she also went back already. I haven't really dressed much lately except for the standard wearing of my panties all the time. Once when her daughter was here she wanted me to do something and threaten me by saying if I didn't do as she wanted she would dress me up and parade me around in front of them all night. I didn't want that so I did as she wished although her daughter has seen Domino before, I still wasn't up to it that night. One night when me and her best friend were out to eat, I heard a few comments about them dressing me up as well becuse it has been such a long time since she has played like that. That didn't happen either though but that too would be up to her if she really wanted me to or not. She didn't push it so it didn't happen, just like one morning when they were chatting and I came into the room and gave Ms. Kate her morning kiss. She told me to give one to her friend as well. I was a little confused by that. I know they have shared others before but Ms. Kate has yet to share me with anyone. So I didn't and niether one protested. I guess she is happy the way things are and doesn't want to share me with anyone. She doesn't have any others either that I know of or at least I don't think she does except for her dildo she keeps. I feel bad that I am not the one that brings her enough sexual relief and feel as though I should be. Maybe I should be locked away in chastity again and give that another try because that seems to have kept me attentive to her needs when we did that. Or maybe she is just tired of my clitty and wishing she had a bigger one to do the job. We could always get a strap on for me to wear since I know how good they can make one feel or maybe she would like the real thing which would be up for her to decide since it is all about her. Not sure how I would take that but I'm sure Ms. Kate could make Domino except whatever she wanted. Although I think she would want my clitty locked up for that. Just to make sure it was her I was always thinking about. Not so sure what I would do if that happen but as long as she has discipline as a threat and occasionly uses it, she can have anything she wants or wants me to do.  Ms Kate doesn't like giving me oral but does expect it from me although she did just the other night. While she was doing that I couldn't help thinking what if she wanted me to do that for someone else and what that would feel like to have to do that. Probally I would accept it just like I accept it everytime she wishes me to service her as she guides me to do whenever she wishes to have it done for her. It is something a girl does and as an owned gurl it would be easier to accept. If she really wanted to see me suck a cock she always could get out her strap on anytime she wanted. I know it is something I would never do on my own no matter wrether I was curious or not. She came into the store yesterday and told me later that I was flerting with some girls while she was there which I know better because I am hers and as her proberty that would get me killed unless she set it up her way. That is why I am the sub as she is the dominate.

Dear diary, well after a few weeks since my last post I will try and update anyone interested in this. My Ladies daughter is staying with us from Iowa for two weeks so not much dressing going on. She has a lil girl and it is all about my Lady and her grand daughter right now and not so much about Domino. They both took off for the night though to go to columbus which is where they lived before my Lady moved down here with me. So I don't have much planned for my day here and guess since they are gone, now is a good time to work on the stuble I have growing and shave smooth all over. It's not that her daughter hasn't seen the submissive gurl in me before but it's just more about seeing her grand daughter. I did however get a little carried away a couple nights ago and was only playing around when I picked up a stick and smacked her on the butt, then got everyone including her daughter and grand daughter. She quickly went to our room and got her favorite paddle and came back and told me to kneel. Not knowing if she was serious or not I didn't but instead she chased me around the house for a few laps. I'm never really sure if she is serious or not. If she was I think she would latch onto my hair or ear and make me obey.I know when I was really in trouble as a kid, they would call me by my real name. Maybe we should discuss when she really wishes for me to submit she just call me Domino and then I would know she was serious.
The last few weeks I have switched from working the late shift to working the morning shift. I am not use to it yet I think since I was use to staying up most of the night before. Now it is hard to stay up late at all. I went to bed last night to watch the basketball championship and don't remember much of any of it. I do remember her waking me up with her accidently turning on the TV. When I asked her what she was doing, she told me she didn't want to bother me and was going to play with her toy. I was very tired and feel right back to sleep. I'm not sure why she even has such toys since she has me and could demand me to do whatever she wanted and when she wanted it but that is for her to decide. I just know that as her gurl and proberty that I am not allowed to pleasure myself without her permission. I'm sure if I did she would really wear me out with her paddle or lock me up in chastity for good or both. Maybe I just don't satisfy her I will never know. As her gurl it would be up to me to do as told whenever or wherever she says or face her wrath. Maybe we should invest in a dildo for me to wear that is bigger then me to use to please her.

Dear diary, well its been a week since my last post now. My Lady has not demand I wear a nighty to bed every night or dress all the time for her since my last post. But she did insist the other night and after hesitateing some I was threatened with a spanking so I complied. A fter doing so I figured she was satisfied but told me to lay across her lap anyway. I did so and only after she warmed my rear some because she said my atttude needed adjusted was she satisfied. I'm just glad she didn't use one of her toys, those things really hurt although that is probally the whole point of it though, it ussually changes my attitude really quick. She has to work late tonight and I am on days this week so it is a good time to make sure my legs are as expected and shaved smooth for her.

Dear diary, well Ms. Kate had to work at 11 am today and I didn't have to work untill 5 pm. I actually got up early for me today and had some coffee while Ms. Kate was busy on her computer in her office. I checked my email and played some games myself before decideing to take a nap since I will be up late tonight. I was woke up with her going thru my dresser as she picked at domino's things and layed out an outfit as she told me to change into before I had to go to work. It didn't make any sense to me since she was about to leave and I had to work later. I tried to explain that to her but she insisted and told me that her shoe horn was in reach if I refuse. I did't want to test her on that so I did as told. I hate that thing and she really likes it the most of her toys I think. I am really trying to be on my best behavier and avoid any discipline. Ever since our last big fight I have relalized how lucky I am to have her in my life and in control. If she wants her girl dressed then it is best I dress because if she wanted to she could always grab that paddle and use it on me. I have been dressing alot more lately as she wishes. That is alot easier to accept then accepting discipline to change ones attitude. I got up to find my favorite black dress, it feels so good on over the slip and hose.She even left me a bra and my sliicone breast out to wear. Those things feel so real but cover up my favorite things, my nipples. They are very heavy and feel real to the touch though as I am now aware of the reason for a bra. When I am dressed though I feel so much like a happy, owned girl though. And as her girl I know that rule one is Ms. Kate is always right and rule number two is refer to rule number one. So I wore my outfit like she said and just glad she didn't tell me to wear it to work. Either way it is alot better then her grabbing that shoe horn and telling me to bend over, which I know she also likes. But I am trying my best to avoid that, so here I sit dressed and feeling the feel of these things alone, aroused and very much a girl.

Dear diary, well it has been a couple days since my last post but I don't think she minds. I'm not even sure she reads this thing anymore but it is one of our rules. She either dosen't read this anymore or she just doesn't want to enforce the rules as much. Either way I am not wanting this to end and even got dressed in my nighty the other night when I went to bed. She hasn't gotten upset with me or at least showed it if she has. I'm sure if she was I would know with all the things in her arsernal to choose from to change an attitude. Then again she dosen't need anything really, all she needs is her two hands. A tug of the hair or a spanking get your attention fast and I thought a few times she had that look like she was ready to slap it out of me over the last week or so. At least she hasen't decideed to enforce the rules I guess and I still don't have to wear anything special. I still have to wear panties all the time and hope nobody ever notices, I could only imagine if she had me wear a bra or something more all the time. I really had a reminder of who was in charge before when she had me locked in that cage and had to sit to pee or that butt plug that is a real pain in the ass to wear. I also use to have to wear hose under my pants as well. Hopeing my pants don't ride up my leg so everyone see's. She has been coming home and telling me to get dressed though and even gone as far as picking out what to wear though. She even insisted I wear my fake breast the other night. I am very a very lucky gurl, well at least so far.

Dear diary, well I got an unexpected surprise a couple nights ago. My Lady came into our room and told me to put on a nighty she was holding. As ussual though I started to hesitate and was quickly reminded who I belonged to. I still didn't do it and she was about to slap me when I realized she was not going to take no for an answer. i still remember our big fight the last time and the cane she wanted to use that time. I didn't want her to grab it or anything else let alone slap me across the face so I complied. She went on to inform me that she planned on some playtime with her girl tonight. she turned off the lights and I thought we were going to bed but just as I started under the covers she said don't. I knew better then to argue and she started to do some kissing and cuddleing and then she got up and got her strap on. I might not have been in the mood but know what is coming when she puts it on. And as her girl I get reminded of my place as her lil slut. After her useing it for awhile the pain eases and I guess I relax enough for her to use me but then again as her proberty that doesn't matter. Atleast she uses lots of lube and tries to ease it into me. I'm sure if she wanted to play and I refused she would show me what it felt like without it. after a long pounding she informed me that we would be doing that more often, only time will tell. I am really glad she did take charge though and a glimpse of Ms. Kate showed up, but not sure if it is just a faze or if it's something she plans on following though with. I was her lil slut that night though and last night when I got home she told me she was ready for bed and I wasn't. She didn't care and had me dress again in the same thing and told me to come to bed and I just held her untill she slept. I really think I had best watch my P's and Q's for awhile and see if this is something that she really wishes on a fulltime basis. If it is I know she won't hesitate to use whatever she wishes to have me submit to her wishes. At least she isn't making me kneel at her feet as soon as I come home but then again that very well could happen. Maybe I should find out how many stockings and hose I have left if she plans on keeping domino around more just in case. Then again maybe she could go shopping and get me more because since it's been a long time since I wore mine, the last I knew I needed more. I take it from what she said the other night that I will be dressing and being her lil slut more. My male side is no bitch to anyone but domino is Ms. kates bitch always as she has made clear in the past. She likes lots of sex with her bitch and likes me as her lil slut with lots of penatration both ways and lots of oral sex, only the only blowjobs would be when she's wearing her strap on. So far at least she hasn't brought out her canes or my chastity so I feel very lucky so far and won't push it.

Dear diary, well I am posting today because my Lady told me we don't have enough sex anymore. Well I don't know about all that but if she was to take control like she use to, that would be no problem. I know in the past Ms. kate never had a problem with that because she demanded whatever she wanted and as her gurl there where consiquences for not doing as told. Ms. Kate seemed to like control and me as Domino loves it when she is in charge at all times. If she wanted a slut, maid or whatever she had her way. Lately though we haven't been domino or Ms. Kate for a long time. The only time it seems she wants me as her submissive gurl is when she is really pissed or we have a disaggreement. It is alot harder to submit if not on a regular basis and given free will the redneck seems to always get in the way. I do know that all she would have to do is demand what she wanted and not take no as a answer but that would be alot easier to get if I was made to be her gurl more then aloud to roam around as I wished and left to be a redneck most of the time. I so miss having to do as told or face the results of her disappointment. Domino was much more of a slut I think and alot more receptive of her wishes.

Dear diary, well here I am coming up with yet another entry to this journal I am suppose to keep on a daily basis. I was sitting here thinking about what Kate told me to do while she went to work today and I had the day off. She told me to clean the kitchen and sweep the house. I know that it has best be done but couldn't help but think of the fight we had a few weeks back where she told me how lazy I was and it was her house. We have been together for 5 years or so now and now live in a house we got together instead of my old appartment. Her parents got the house for us because we couldn't get it on our own and they made sure to put it in her name. We are buying it together but it is still in her name though. I love her more now then we first meet and would be lost witout her. With that being said I am a bit confused though as my status with her. During the fight were she wanted me to take a road trip with her and I refused, she told me to go to our room where she instructed me to strip and bend over the bed. She was furious and had one of her wicked canes in her hand. I knew she meant bussiness and I was going to get a thrashing to remember. Untill now she has only used her hand or a paddle on me. I chickened out and decided to resist and that is when she told me to leave. After a brief fight she went without me and the redneck in me came out.
From the first time we meet and started chatting, it has been a femdom led relationship and one I always dreamed of. To have someone who not only supports my crossdressing but has taken it further then I ever would or could have on my own. We came up with some rules to follow and hell I had my boxer shorts taken away and been in panties ever since. I love it when she is dominate and takes charge but I also can revert very quickly to the redneck I have been to everyone my whole life. She knows my secret and most of her friends do as well about her gurl although we don't go out anymore since she has moved down here with me. She use to insist I dress at home and even that has gone by the way side it seems. None of my family or friends know Domino and she has keep that secret. Maybe she has lost interest but either way I still wear my panties and try to keep smooth as she wishes. She might not have me dress for her in all my dresses, hose and make up like she use to but on rare occasion she mentions it as she does the discipline she use to administer when I balk at her wishes. She use to be quick with useing it and even controlled me with chastity at one time. Now she just mentions such things and like the other day likes to jump into Ms kate mode and have me get into the submissive gurl mode just as quick. That leaves me confused a bit when she does that and the red neck in me comes out the most.
I love being her gurl but just wish I wasn't tore between being her gurl and her man. The one wishes to do exactly as Ms. Kate says and the other likes being a guy. She has said in the past that my cock isn't very big and that she wished I would take control in the bedroom more. I denie her more then I submit to her but all the while I long to be under her control at all times, not take the lead as a man should I guess. Besides a man would never be caught in panties and she has enough pictures to ruin me if she ever wanted too. I know I should have done as she instructed the other day no matter what but as it is so far between the times of me being her man to being her gurl, it makes it hard to jump right into a situation where I know I should be and that is as her gurl. Bent over the bed accepting whatever it is she has in mind no matter what it is. Maybe since we have hit a mile stone of somewhat and she still hasn't let out my secrets to the world, we should get back to the rules we came up with when we first wrote them and maybe then she would have less struggle when it comes to us disaggreeing on things because as her gurl it is easy to do as told. If not Ms. Kate knows how to straighten her out but that would be up to her and since she doesn't force the issue then maybe it is something she really doesn't want. I'm not sure but I do know that I hope to be with her for the rest of my life.

Dear diary, well it has been a week or so since my last post and me and Ms kate had a big fight the other day. I guess the redneck boy showed up again. She and I don't get many days off work together and she told me on my day off that we were going to visit her friend for the night a 100 miles away and I told her I wasn't going. She didn't want to hear that and we ended up haveing a big fight about it. Since we are supposed to be a femdom couple and I am her sub, I know I should just do as she says. I also know that when I don't I should just accept whatever she see's fit as punishment. But since we arn't 24/7 and hardly ever live that way these days, it is hard to just jump into that frame of mind. It would be different if we lived it much more of the time because that is what I always dreamed of. I am very happy and love being with her and hers. I love it even more when she is Ms Kate and I can be Domino. As Domino it is much easier being a sub then as when in boy mode and acting as a boy friend. I would love to be Domino 24/7 and have our rules enforced all the time but that is not how life is right now and I am not sure I would like that or am willing to go that far. Do to family, friends, work and such, being Domino 24/7 isn't something I am prepared to do right now. But she use to and sometimes still does treat me as that gurl I always dreamed of being and for that I love her even more. I do know I am to old to fight anymore and when we do I don't think it is right to expect me to just jump right into subspace and submit to discipline. Domino is her proberty and would do anything she ask but the guy in me can be a lot harder to accept things like she might want. It would be nice to be Domino much more then I am now even if it isn't 24/7 but what we do when at home or whatever she has me do or wear under my boy clothes and in public is all up to her. And as long as she doesn't enforce the rules we have or or contrl over me that I gave her when I decided to become hers years ago, it will alays be a struggle between the boy in me and Domino that I feel like 24/7.

Dear diary, well Ms Kate decided the other day that I was long over due for an attitude adjustment. She brought out her favorite thing to use for this, a wooden shoehorn that she has. It is like a paddle but only about two inches wide and I hate that thing. It really leaves an impression though not only with my additude but also with a red ass. I quess she is tired of the way things are with me and although I don't like discipline, I am glad she loves me enough to show me the errors of my ways. To take the time to do it and keep me straight. It surely puts me in a submissive state of mind. She says that she is tired of me not doing enough around the house and not dressing for her as she is tired of the same old look. She also said she is tired of my denials when asked to do things when she ask. I guess it is time to get more hose to wear and start dressing for her more. I just hope she doesn't make it a regular thing but then only she has that right to make that choice. She also could use a few things that would hurt and get my attention even more. She did mention the other day that maybe she needed to get out the bondage equipment she thought.I just wonder what is next, maybe she starts laying out my clothes she wishes me to wear or leaving me those list like she has done so before. She does like it when I do as told and I love it when she takes control in such ways and I am getting better I think at accepting whatever she decides. I'm just glad she doesn't want me kept in chastity and wearing a skirt 24/7, one has to go to work you know.